this is going to sounds werid and creepy, but i kinda want to get kidnapped or murdered or something. jsut so i could see how people react, well mostly to see how you react.what you would do, how you would feel, what you would say, everything. i miss knowing you. it hurts to close my eyes at night. it hurts because i see you, my heart breaks all over again and my vision is blocked with a salty wall of water. i can feel my face getting hot, i can feel my throat closing, and i can begin to hear myself breathe.

you siruh, are killing me. inside and out. even if you arent trying, you are fucking killing me.