i used to write beautiful love poems,

i could write for days about all the amazing feelings i got when i say you.

now all i can write is dealth, blood, tears, and being alone.

you changed me, and i dont want to stay this way. i want to go back.

i want to be happy.

i want to love again. i want to stop crying over you.

i want to have a normal relationship without worrying about getting hurt.

i want to forget everything.

i want to forget, forgive, and move on.

i need to stop. i jsut cant.

i need you in my life, even if only as a friend.

the absence of you makes me want to give up.

ive thought about doing things i dont believe in, things i know are wrong, and things that would possibly make me happy, but only for a night. but everytime i think about it, i think of how disappointed you would be. and then, i just cant bring myself to do it.

maybe that is a good thing.

but i really just want to be happy, even if its only one night.