i want to go back.

you took a piece of me when you left, and it was a very important organ, and now i cant live my life, because you have it.

i dont regret the time we spent together.

i do regret the time we dont have anymore, i regret falling so hard because now im dying inside.

i want to go back,

i want to go back to the time when we first broke up, we started to become friends again, and maybe we should have stayed that way.

i wish jacob had never told me it wasnt too late. i wish i could just feel like i used to.

i wish i could be happy and always having fun.

i want to go back to the time before i cried myself to sleep night after night.

i want to be able to love again, and i want to not feel so worthless and not good enough.

all these couples are getting back together, and the guys come running back to these girls.

all i ever think about is,

"why am i not good enough? why doesnt he want me back? why doesnt he miss me and come running back to me? why cant he just love me like i love him, or how i thought he loved me? why doesnt he ever think of the old times we spent jsut laying down cuddling and loving? why am i sitting here, dying of a broken heart, and he is out with his friends having the time of his life?"

i believed everything you said, and maybe you meant it.....at the time.

but the point is that you dont mean any of it anymore.

and THAT is what hurts the most.

knowing that i clearly had changed from the person you loved, because if i hadnt changed we could still be in love.