bleh i dont know.

im jsut kind of bored.so i decided to blog.i have too much in my head, too much to the point that i always have a headache but i never have anything to say.it sucks because i know i cant make myself feel better. today, i was told i was a sweetheart and that i was gorgeous.i was told ill find someone new in no time, and while that could happen, i dont think i want anyone but you. its terrible. i love you so much i cant control my mind. i do things i shouldnt, and i do things that potientally will ruin us as friends. i leave scars on my body, which then are just left to become tragic reminders of the past eightyfour days. some of those i spent with you, which i cant tell right now if it helped or made things worst. at least we are talking again though. whenever i think of your voice though, i start to break down. i cant get you out of my head. i cant get your image out of my eyes.the image of us is always there. everytime i close my eyes, i see your eyes, your smile, your face. and on the rare occasion i dont see any of those, i see an image of what we could have been. i see us sitting on the porch of a nice house in rocking chairs with our old kitty and old doggy laying next to us. i see us laying in bed together, and i see us just holding hands as we slowly fall asleep forever. jsut like the notebook. you were my fairytale ending, i jsut wish someone had told me not to fall for the perfect prince charming.