fuck you.

i could totally understand that, time for her, but not me.
you do wanna be in a relationship, just with her not me.
why cant you jsut say it?it probably would have hurt less.
at least if you told me that, you would be dumping me for a person instead of nothing.
was i really that bad of a girlfriend?
you really jsut dont want me in your life?
no.
you jsut want her in there instead.
i hope she cheats on you once you guys go out.
i hope you feel the insecurity i did.
i hope youre happy though.
it sounds bad, and stupid, but i do hope you are happy in the end.
i jsut hope that karma is a bitch back to you, like it was to me.

remember this one? "one more question..."

you mean the world to me,
everytime i look into your eyes,
i always get butterflies.

you are the only girl i think about
i love you so much and theres no doubt
the way you make me feel is indescribable
and i dont know what i'd do without you (:

josie, you mena the world to me
and youre all i think about.

remember this?

september burns red
with heated passion
passion of love
the day that i met her will always be
a day to remember
bring with this princess-like person is my
front burner
love and happiness are feelings that dawn on me
being memorized by her eloquence
caused
september to burn red.

i realize i said that there would be no more gay posts, but who the fuck am i kidding.im a teenager with way to many emotions to bottle up inside.

tears after tears.

i cant sleep, eat, think.i cant live.
i dont know what happened.
we planned our life, we planned our house, our college, our family, even our pets.
i dont know what went wrong.
i want to be friends, i cant have you completely out of my life.
ive never felt so alone.i feel like my world is gone.
i feel like this is unreal, jsut a nightmare im waiting to wake up from.
ive never had so many emotions, i cant go on like this.
i tried not caring, i tried crying, ive tried talking, i dont know.
I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO.
im dying here.inside, outside, emotionally, im losing my life.
im losing control.
im losing my mind, i cant help but cry all the time.
FOURTEEN MONTHS THREE WEEKS AND FIVE DAYS.
why does this shit happen to me.when did this shit happen to us.
i thought we would be high school sweethearts.
this ruined everything i thought i knew about love, hope, trust, faith, passion, and most importantly the future. i mgiht as well be a fucking corpse with tears running down my cheeks.

no more posts about what he did, how i feel, how its working or not.this is the last of that.its done, and though it hurts, im sure it will only hurt more with passing time.(:

i cant always feel it.

you dont hold me like before,

so in love.

tight.

close.

as one.



you dont talk to me like before,

slowly.

nicely.

sensitively.



you just dont love me like before,

no more time.

always gone.

you never answer.



two seperate people.

a girl whos "too attached"

isnt it what you wanted?

whats changed?your feelings?

you?her?

why is it like this?

you? or is it just me?

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you put the color back in my world, and everything's right.

at least i know where we stand...sortof.

SOOOO CONFUSED.

When it gets cold, and it feels like the end.

there's no place to go, you know i wont give in.

--AVRIL LAVIGNE--

i feel like its fading away.

like WE are fading away.